lesson learned today

Today was a very bad day for me. I was literally start doing my first experiment. Yeah, I’ve started my research since last week, but today is the first day for me to treat my samples. And I made one stupid fatal mistake that affect all of the samples. It means, tomorrow I have to do it all over again. I feel really stupid and useless, you know.

I still can take a moral of the story from this kinda “incident”, though. I need to be really really really careful next time. I mustn’t lose concentration even only for a second. It’s been almost 2 years I didn’t do a real lab project, so it’s normal that I need to adjust myself again in the laboratory. I hope everything goes well tomorrow and the days after.

And you know what, when I went home this afternoon, there was people from Christian Society having an event near the sports centre. They gave cakes to people (including me) who were passing by. They stick a little paper that contain a line from the Bible, on top of each cake. Accidentally, on the cake that I took, there was this line.

The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

I feel like,  that was God Himself who is trying to speak directly to me not to be afraid because He always be with me, even in my darkest time. This evening I also had a chit-chat with my friend. Apparently, she had a problem with her research as well. Then she told me this, “you know what, it’s better that you made mistake today rather than you make mistake later when you’ve gone that far with your research. at least, you learn something today.”

Okay then. This seems to be a quick post for me. I was down, honestly. But now I feel much better.


On This Saturday Night..

I have just randomly typed “mostly jazz” in the YouTube search box, then I found a video of Dira Sugandi singing this song that was originally sung by Billie Holiday. Oh, I love the lyrics. Here are the videos of both the Dira’s version and the original version of this song. Both are great, in my opinion. And yes, I am a Jazz listener, though not that fanatic. 🙂  Enjoy!

The Man I Love

Someday he’ll come along, the man I love

And he’ll be big and strong, the man I love

And when he comes my way

I’ll do my best to make him stay

He’ll look at me and smile, I’ll understand

Then in a little while, he’ll take my hand

And though it seems absurd

I know we both won’t say a word

Maybe I shall meet him on Sunday

Maybe Monday, maybe not

Still I’m sure to meet him one day

Maybe Tuesday will be my good news day

He’ll build a little home, that’s meant for two

From which I’ll never roam

Who would, would you?

And so all else above

I’m dreaming of the man I love

-billie holiday-


My February

Today is already the 8th of February, which means we have passed the first week of this new month. February will always be my favorite month, other than December. I think I have said that sentence for a thousand times. So, early February was quite fun for me. I’ve done some activities that I love, even though I haven’t done much things that relate to my research. I’m in my off period this week, by the way. Start from the beginning of next week, I will have already working in my lab to do my research. And that will be my only activity until the next 6 months. I hope everything about my research are going to be fine and I can finish it on time. Hopefully, I can continue this research for my PhD project. In the name of Jesus Christ, there is nothing that impossible to happen.

Last week was so wonderful. Actually I suppose to attend the first rehearsal, after months of holiday, of the student choir. However, I decided not to go. I prefer to join my fellow Indonesian students in Newcastle to perform in an international event held by Northumbria University. We performed Saman Dance, Angklung, and Ngibing. I chose to play Angklung, since I can’t dance at all.   Somehow, I feel that we share the same feeling of being Indonesian in a country far far away from home, we have this kind of responsibility to promote our country. We have to show the world that Indonesia is not that bad, actually. That was the best thing we could do, introducing some Indonesian traditional culture to the world. I’m so proud knowing that people are so curious about my country. Some of them have never been to Indonesia, but soon they will visit my country. How happy and how proud we are!

PPI Newcastle Angklung Performance

In the end of last week, me & my fellow medical students was having a short trip to York. It was a beautiful city filled with ancient buildings. I always love ancient architecture and natural beauty. I was so surprise that I can find them all in York. We spent the whole day exploring that city without any expectation of finding the snow. Yeah, surprisingly after we had lunch, we went out from the restaurant and found out there was a heavy snow shower. Oh waow! This is the first time in my life watching such a natural snow falling down from the sky. Unfortunately the snow became heavier and heavier as the afternoon turned into evening. Our train schedule to Newcastle was being delayed and I started to feel disappointed. “How if we can’t go back to Newcastle and have to spend a night in York railway station”, that was the first thought that crossing my mind. Thank God, finally the train came at 8 pm, about 30 minutes late from the original schedule.

Heavy Snow in York

That was a very tiring yet exciting week. And yeah, that was the way I start my February. 🙂